WALK ON

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child, Child Abuse, Family, heart ache, poems, poems about child abuse, poetry, Police station, sexual abuse, Welfare

Walk on,

my feet,

quaver but keep on,

Hope,

be my walking stick,

Faith,

my footwear,

Walk on,

my feet,

Justice,

my guiding light,

trip but keep on,

Walk on,

Keep on,

Up or down,

Walk,

Walk on.

****

I sit here under my mosquito net typing this post while all around me, my family sleep.

I wish sleep would come. I wish my heart stopped aching. I wish for many things.

A month ago a young family member came for my help. She came with a story of an older family member sexually harassing her.

She is thirteen. He is in his late 30′s. They live in the same house despite most of my family insisting we solved it in-house I pushed for it to be reported to the police.

So we went down and reported the matter. She came down and went through the interviewing etc. They told us to move her so we did. They told us they would come and arrest him so we waited and waited.

We went down again only to find out the first complaint was never filed. We had to file another one.

During that time he threatened her with a knife and stalked her.

As time went we realised she needs a lot of help. Help, we are not able to give. We went to Social Welfare only to be told time and time again they were in meetings.

Every night he circled the home we moved her too. He brings her gifts; treats; and cash. He sees nothing wrong in what he is doing.

Three days ago it reached boiling point and we went back down to the police station. They told us TO DEAL WITH HIM OURSELVES and bring down to the police station ourselves because they had no fuel to come up and find him.

It seems that because no actual penetration happened it’s not a serious case even though he did attempt to force her to service him orally.

He is on the run now after another family member exploded and punched him when he said he was in ‘a relationship’ with the child.

So now he is out there..a Mary Jane addict who has threatened to kill this child and no real help for the child insight.

So where do we go? How do we help this child? HOW MANY CHILDREN REACHED OUT FOR HELP BUT NEVER GOT IT? So many questions…so I wrote this to keep on going…I must!!

aching

Maiya

Just to Be

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expections, Family, God, heartache, love, Poems about God, relationships, sadness, Soul search, tired, weary

 

 

Just to be

Hear me

these shoulders

 heavy laden

I plod in the field

amongst

 the blossoms and weeds

send your angels

to carry me

 

here I stand

still the storm

around

and inside

me

 

arms outstretched

waiting

send the wind

to pick me up

take me to

 where you be

 

I am weary

I yearn

 just to be

send a moonbeam

for me to climb

 

no minds

no expectations

no obligations

no nothing

just to be

 

here take my heart

it burdens me

remove the splinters

lodged deep

 

hear me

I slump

waiting

my God

answer

me

 

send

 me

a rainbow

a dove

a sunrise

a promise

of what

tomorrow

brings

 

so

tomorrow

I can just be

 *********

 

 

 

Crumbs

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children, Family, heartbroken, love, poems, poems about neglect, poetry

Crumbs

 

A crumb,

please,

a tiny,

weensy,

piece,

 

whatever,

you can give,

a glance,

a smile,

a “hello,”

 

maybe

tomorrow,

my drawing you can see,

or a sand castle we can build,

 

I

play

at your feet,

until

you

notice

me

I know Angels and so do you

Tags

Angels, Death, Family, friends, Jesus, Loved one, loved one. God, poems, poetry, reflection, sadness

 

Last night frustrated with life. I knelt down and prayed. I heard My Lord Jesus whisper the answers to every request.

 

I asked for patience.

He whispered a name and said, “Don’t you remember what you were like before he came?”

 

I asked for unconditional love.

I heard the smile in his voice as he said, “look into your child’s eyes nothing you will ever do or say will take that away. My love is the same.”

 

I asked for strength.

Again he whispered a name. Then said, “When you heard what she had been through and still was able to smile everyday. Didn’t you have the strength to do the same?”

 

Every character trait, I asked for he whispered a name. Then showed what they gave me.

 

I always thought these would be given to me supernaturally in some special way.  Jesus would wave his hands over me while I was sleeping and I would wake up filled with love, courage, strength, patience and wisdom and so many other things I have asked for, in my many prayers.

 

Then I realize what has been in front of me all along, every step of the way, each and every day!

 

He did it by sending people or Angels my way.

 

Wether it was as a spiritual mentor or someone to make me laugh so I could make through another day. Or wether it was by witnessing their life, their support or just by being themselves. I learnt from them.

 

He introduced people in my life, throughout my life. Sometimes for short periods or long ones depending on what I needed at that time, at that stage of my journey to a better me.

 

Close your eyes and think back to the most painful times in your life. Chances are you will see a friend or someone who made your life bearable during those days.

 

Or maybe during a time of rage when the voice of reason was a family member or a workmate. 

 

Or just someone who said, “Hello” while you were walking to work one day feeling like a grain of sand on a long damp beach.

 

God sent them your way!

*****

RIP M.B   Thank you for all your “Hellos“.

Several weeks ago I made a trip into town to see the dentist and do some shopping for my home.

While I was there I was told a friend a former workmate was very sick and in hospital. I said I would visit her and went to the dentist which was only a few corridors down from where she was.  A couple of minutes walk.

When I left, I decided I would go later and went to the lodge where we were staying. The next day I went shopping even managed to go get some news clothles, reply to comments on my blog then went back to the lodge. We left the next day.

She passed away a couple days later. She was a good woman.

Please go visit your friends, loved ones, family. Make the time. Even if it is to say “Hello”.

This is an old piece I wrote and emailed out to my friends years before I got the courage to start my blog.  I did some changes to it and posted it for you all and mostly to my friend M.B.

In Bed with Me #2

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dark, Family, heartache, love, parents, passion, poems, Poems about women, poetry, relationships, sad poems

In my bed

 we lie,

all three of we,

 

a clone,

a ghost,

 and me,

 

pain roars for battle,

against

my unseen enemy,

 

to inflict,

the same,

 as was

dealt to me,

  

my spirit prances,

eager for a war,

lost,

before it begins.

 

against an apparition,

for a clone,

I do not know,

 

we dine,

my bond,

his shackles,

next to me,

  

across from me,

beside the moon and stars,

he sits,

 

a mannequin,

blood red,

 painted on grin,

 

I touch,

 but do not feel,

 

I speak,

 He grins,

 

here we lie,

a clone,

 lying beside,

a ghost,

who lies,

 next to me

******

#2

 

 

Tick tock

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Babies, child, Family, heartache, love, parents, poems, Poems about babies, Poems about women, poetry

tick tock

Body clock

tick tock tick tock

timetable shot

tick tock tick tock tick tock

still empty cots

tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock

make it stop

tick tick tick tick

pleassse help me God

tock

**********

Been trying to have a baby for  a while now so this piece came from that experience.  I wish it was as easy as my 8yr old said, “just go to the store and get one.”   When I sat down to write it, all I could get was the clock ticking in my head.  

“Please daddy don’t hit me again”

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child, Child Abuse, Domestic Violence, Family, Father, Mother, poems, Poems about death, poetry, sad poems, Violence against Children

 

There she stood, little face etched in pain, tiny tears running down her bruised face, Neck bent back, looking up, trying so hard to contain, all her fear, inside her small frame, “What’s my name?,” he roared down, body shaking with rage, hand raised just in case, “Daddy, Daddy,” she whimpered again and again, body shivering as she fought hard, not to look away, incase it inflamed his rage, In the corner, her mother stood, tears streaming down her face, wringing her hands, trying so desperately, to gather up the courage, to push her husband away, The neighbor broke the door down, seconds too late, the five year old lay on the floor, eyes staring into another place, Her mother over her body wailed, “oh why, oh why child did you have to say, ‘Please Daddy don’t hit me again’.”  iy©2010

On the floor

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Abuse, dark, Domestic Violence, Family, Family Violence, heartache, husbands and wives, poems about domestic violence, sadness

On the floor she lay,

in a befuddled daze,

praying her mother would visit today,

and be her saving grace,

blood splattered all over her face,

eyes stuck on the fists coming her way,

brain begging God to help her escape